Competing with Porn Stars: Part 3 (The Response)

Oops. Uhh wow, so it seems that I forgot something really, really important. Throughout this whole search and rollar coaster (which it has been), I forgot and needed to be reminded that I was actually a dead author. What does that mean now? Well, like I wrote in the “About Me”, I have this little problem of “staying dead”. This whole time I forgot something and this is what I believe the revelation of my beauty is coming down to: I’m dead! I surrendered my life to Christ… so it is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me! So what does that mean when it comes to figuring out that I’m beautiful and somehow believing this about my beauty? Well, one of my closest friends said it very well in a text I received tonight, “It is CHRIST who is beautiful in you, because you are in Him and He is in you.”

This really isn’t about me. My life isn’t about me, this blog isn’t about me, this really IS NOT ABOUT ME. We can go through the facts, like 1.) If we are made in God’s image and God is not ugly then neither are we. 2.) If I have the mind of Christ and Christ is not stupid then neither am I. 3.) If God said everything He created is good and I’m created then I’m good. Man, we could go on and on about this… but it’s this one thing that hit me and hit me hard. I am dead (yeah, go figure) and I surrendered my life and it is no longer I who live but Christ who lives in me. Main point: Christ lives through me and as long as that is happening, stays my main focus, and is cultivated then I’m good. We’re done here. Does He still have more to teach me? Uh, yeah, of course. Do I still need healing? You bet I do. Will I still struggle? Probably everyday. Will it all be worth it? Yes, yes, and YES! As long as Christ lives through me, as long as I make that daily decision to move aside and clear the path for His will in my life, as long as Christ is what is being shown in my life, then I have no other choice to be anything but beautiful… because He has no other choice than to be the most beautiful Man to have ever walked the face of earth and the expanse of the heavens. Lord, I lay myself aside and my selfish desires to want my flesh to be pretty. Please wake me up to what’s really going on here. All flesh will fade like grass, but you are the King who is above every other thing and You live in me. Case closed.

Now will I be attacked in this area again? Of course. Will I need to read my own blog next week, next month, or in two years to remind myself? Yes I will. But will He be faithful to show me the truth again? I would stake my life on it.

{To everyone who sent me encouragement, messages, songs, and prayers, thank you so much. It worked. God is faithful and He answered our prayers.}

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~ by confessionsofadeadauthor on August 24, 2011.

2 Responses to “Competing with Porn Stars: Part 3 (The Response)”

  1. So, how do you respond to your guy friend that started this whole investigation into self-image?

  2. Well, I’m not a man, but I believe that this message is not different for the opposite gender. There may be different issues that we struggle with, but ultimately, it is Christ who makes us worthy and righteous every time 🙂

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